Diary of a Fat Girl
Saturday, December 13, 2003
It's Saturday night and I am staying in once again to study. I am sick of going out to watch my skinny friends have all the fun and get hit on by all the guys. I feel so alone. I feel like no one likes me because I am fat and ugly. I had a boyfriend. He was really cute. I don't know how I got him to begin with. I don't know what he seen in me. He recently dumped me. He use to tell me how beautiful I was and how he loved everything about me, well that changed. Sometimes I wonder if it was because of me being fat. He was a lot smaller than me. He was taller than me, but he had a smaller waist. I miss the days when I was skinny and had guys liking me. I hate going out because it makes me remind myself of how big I have gotten. I try on outfit after outfit after outfit and I am still uncomfortable. Every outfit is either to tight around my thighs, my stomach, or my boobs. I hate it! Starting today I'm not going to feel sorry for myself! My break up is my fuel for losing weight! I want to look great the next time he sees me! I want him to regret breaking up with me. He is my fuel and I am going to make him and any other guy regret not wanting to be with me! I have to prove to myself I can do this!!!